While the joys of pregnancy are many, the pain and grief associated with miscarriage can be overwhelming. After going through weeks with no problems, I experienced some bleeding this weekend, and today the doctor was unable to locate a heartbeat. We are going through the loss of a child. What do I do now? I’ve experienced multiple miscarriages in the past (over 5) and although I have two healthy, beautiful children, this loss is a huge blow. Leaving the doctor’s office today I was faced with a waiting room of happy, pregnant mothers. I went home to a 4 year old asks “is the baby dead?” She’s very perceptive, and very sensitive. I tell her that Jesus is watching our baby for us. She cries, “We could watch our baby. Why can’t we take care of it?” We cry together and have a piece of the cake we baked this weekend. She sniffles, then smiles and asks if we can play dress up.
I have an empty place now.